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LovesickI hate what you're doing with meLovesick by HanaYuno
how you make me love you
I hate when you say sweet things to me
that make me smile, or when you make me laugh
when I get nervous around me and think about you all day Long
when I can't sleep because I worrie about if you like me
I don't want to do that!
I disgust when I know I am falling in love
because I feel thouse butterflys in my belly
and it scares me because then everything becomes to creepy
what if I write you, what if you don't text me back, should I call you or better not
Thinking about you is terrifying.
I don't want to like you, and it is so creepy to be in love
I just simply can't take it. I don't want to have romantic thoughts
or daydream about you
I just want to say good night to you when I go to bed
But then I just can't sleep because I miss you
And your arms around me
I hate when I think about when you will kiss me again
and most of all I hate how you make me desperate
how you make me want to be with you
when that is not possible
Changed thingsSome people might actually know that I often say that I think I have had something that was not alright. May it have been depression or burnout, I don't know since I've never asked a doctor about this... I hate to admit that something was (or is) wrong with meChanged things by HanaYuno
and telling others is like confronting myself with my own problem or just admitting I do have a problem. I am a much to proud person to tell others of how I really feel, so I have to force myself to do that.
But ever since I just accepted it, for myself it has changed something bad into good.
But I do remember that I have had a really hard time last year, and yeah december 2014 I told myself that I have to quit with me feeling bad because it was making my health bad.
I don't want to talk much about "what" was wrong.. it is just that to much stress makes me feel mentally instabile.. I just can't handle pressure.
Okay but what I wanted to write today is the difference that I feel NOW in August 2014.
Because I remember August 2013 w
My name is Eva |
I like kawaii and cute things
Usually I spend my time on my beloved laptop and watch youtube videos, Adventure Time or Anime
or I just read something and I sleep a lot
I like writing poems, stories or just song- lyrics and texts.
I also like to take photos, I'd like to be a photographer someday, or an actress.
Maby I'll be an author one day, and I also LOVE to draw.
I'm a big Anime Fangirl..
Fave anime at the moment is Attack OnTitan and Kyoukai no Kanata.
I love watching youtube videos. Fave Youtubers are:
TarynSouthern DanIsNotOnFire AmazingPhil Ytitti JoyceIlg MichellePhan CutiePieMarzia
PewDiePie Iblali Lefloid VanilleColaa
I do have a youtube channel called Peachy Heartthrob.